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getting the help you need isn't easy. Huge waiting lists, triage and underfunded departments.
Even if and when you can get an appointment it's difficult to explain the extent of your illness and harder to get an understanding ear.
I've been treated like a number (which I am let's not get on the high-horse and think i'm more important than anyone else...) and not been listened to.
45 minute appointment with a junior who is out to tick boxes and works from protocol.
"I don't feel well, it's obvious to me and everyone around me i'm ill, this is chronic and debilitating and I need professional help."
Answer : "You're fine, in our professional opinion (after a 45 minute chat in which we touched the tip of an iceberg) we can't offer you a diagnosis, or therapy or counselling, go private"
This experience and others I've had over the years has left me disillusioned with the UK and seriously considering going abroad for help.
Having said that, diet vitamin D excercise and socialising helps me no end, no medication, no entitled thoughts, no promise of any results. I live with it. I get on with it. It's not easy, nobody said life would be.
Talk it out work it out feel it out.
Change your bedding, switch up your home environment shuffle furniture around to help break the default state and keep things new, cut out toxic people. Listen to good music. Try your best to use CBT techniques to diminish and reverse unwanted negative thought.
You can chip away at this. You can hold your head above water and tread it. Small victories everyday until you see the silver linings, even one thing a day you can do that is in your control and start to make small changes here and there... fall down 7 times stand up 8.
Your pal, Jonnymcenroe
