No such luck I'm afraid, the best person won and it wasn't me. The interviewer has asked if I'd like to go back in for some face to face feedback and I've taken her up with that, it is very nice of her to offer this.
I've had a look at the BBC Extend Scheme (their six-month training scheme for people with disabilities) however it pays 18,500 p.a. and I can't simply can't afford to take that much of a pay cut, I won't be able to survive on it.
So..... well there's life left in this old dog (I'm apparently classed as 'old' at 35!!).... just no idea what to do next.